Sunday, February 2, 2014

Diversary A Look Back

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English: The blue circle is the global symbol for diabetes, introduced by the International Diabetes Federation with the aim of giving diabetes a common identity, supporting existing efforts to raise awareness of diabetes and placing the diabetes epidemic firmly in the public spotlight. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Diversary A Look Back

Yesterday was Brandon's 2 year Diaversary.  This is a day that we have chosen to celebrate the day he was diagnosed.  I know this may seem very odd to celebrate the day he was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes, but here is why I decided to do it last year. It is a time in which we could look back and see the progress that he has made in a year. We went from anger and fear to being on the road to acceptance. Small steps for the entire family.

Last year he was not too in to it, but about a week ago he asked me what day it was, he then said that means we are 7 days away.  From what I said?  My Diaversary.  Now it is important to him and still a time for us to celebrate the successes we have made as a family in living with Type 1 Diabetes.

Below I have copied a blog I wrote about 6 months ago in which I talked about watching a T1D mom talk about her journey through this disease with her family.  I felt it important to share as we celebrate Brandon's 2 year Diaversary.  It is important for us to see how far we have traveled.

Today I Cried

Today I watched.  

Today I cried.

What did I watch, a video chat on Tudiabetes with mom and author Moira McCarthy

Why did I cry?

It has been about a year and 6 months since Brandon was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes, and it has been hard.  Hard to watch my kind hearted son, be angry, watch him deal with something that changed his entire life.  Hard to manage and understand why his numbers are, well are what they are.  Hard to not nag and pester my son because I am fearful.  Hard to do the god damn math that changes every three months.  Hard to wake up at 2:00am to take his blood sugars.  Hard to make sure that I am not forgetting my daughter.  Hard to do this all by myself. 

I actually did not cry about any of these things.  I cried because she admitted that it was hard, to watch her daughter lie to her about checking her blood sugars and taking her insulin.  That is was hard to find the right words when all she wanted to do is scream.  That it was hard to deal with the shame that comes with all of this.

I cried because I was relieved.  I cried because I am not the only one that has these feelings.  I cried because she said that as a parent you need that break to reset.  I cried because she understood.

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